You will be fine

"In the time we have known each other I have seen and learned how you operate. You are a very strong person. You know yourself and you know how to draw from your internal resources. I firmly believe that you will be fine".

I think it is obviously to everyone that I have not been well lately. A big part of that is school related. This depression started from somewhere else but it wormed its way into other aspects of my life, especially school. My mind couldn't focus. I didn't do a paper that is worth a large part of my communications grade. And I failed a biology exam. I felt awful and lost all motivation. I was seriously considering again withdrawing from school.

I saw my advisor today to talk about my concerns. Once again he managed to turn my attitude around completely. He brought up a fact that normally make me feel better, but it's not something I can ever think of on my own: if I am in a bad place, everything seems worse than it actually is. He said all I have done is hit a slump, and that I would be fine. Two days ago I did not feel I would be fine. Right now, I know I'll be fine. Things are just a bit rocky.

I'm trying to keep in mind what I should be doing to try to keep my emotional state stable. Breathing and exercise. I have not been doing any exercising. I have been barely able to get out of bed. I have been practicing the breathing exercise my therapist taught me. It hasn't done much.  I think I need more practice. I am going to try to start exercising again tomorrow.

As for tonight I have class. Then I'm relaxing at home and hopefully getting a good night's sleep. Fingers crossed I wake up tomorrow in a better place.