I'm back

I haven’t written in a while. I had a bad episode. Not going to go into too much detail though. I think it started because of my decision to stop therapy. The anger, frustration, and sadness I felt just lead to depression. I had trouble functioning, wasn’t thinking clearly, and was pretty paranoid about some things. No real psychotic symptoms but just wasn’t fully with it. I ended up in a psychiatric hospital.

This hospital stay compared to my first one was completely voluntary though. I really want to stress that. Because I’m pretty proud of myself for being able to make that decision based on how I was feeling. Instead of letting the depression just take over, I decided that I needed help. I went in late Friday. Slept all day Saturday (I was awake for a total of…. 2 whole hours). Slept and read Sunday. And on Monday I went to a couple groups, and met with a psychiatrist and social worker. I was discharged on Tuesday. I was re-started on my regular meds (I had stopped taking them 2 weeks before), and a new antipsychotic was added. They also diagnosed me with a different type of bipolar disorder, which I’m not quite sure why yet. I only found out about it from the discharge papers they sent home with me.

I meant for this to be a little longer and talk about a few things but I’m feeling pretty uninspired. I’m going to go work on school work. I have some major catching up to do as I didn’t do anything for a couple weeks. Humph.