Withdrawing again

I didn’t sleep well last night. I had things on my mind. Mainly I was thinking about how much I’ve been sleeping the past three months. I’ve been absolutely exhausted. I have to really push through the day doing all the things that I have to do (work, parenting), but then when the evening comes and I sit down to do school work I just fall asleep. I really struggled finding the energy to get through the summer semesters, trying to do the same thing for this semester seems impossible. After spending a good deal of time thinking about it and talking it over with others, I decided to drop down to one class. My advisor once again talked me out of withdrawing completely.

Part of me feels like a failure. But I’m trying not to let that bother me. I’m trying to look after myself. It’s just hard. I hate that I’m always in such a hurry.

I’m feeling uneasy right now. I’m exhausted but my mind is racing. I hate when this happens. I just end up lying there with my mind jumping from thought to thought. At least if I had energy I could keep myself busy.

I’m starting to lose track of where I was going with this post. I really just want to go to sleep.

I need to find ways to get my energy back up.