I really wanted to write a post today, but I’m not able to
do a proper one. I’m having a rough day with racing thoughts and the inability
to concentrate. I felt fine last night, but pretty much as soon as I woke up it
started. The first couple hours were not a big deal. I was handling it. But
then when I got to school I had a hard time. I ended up leaving class early.
During the lecture part I couldn’t pay attention, and during the group work I
wasn't doing anything. I was sitting there looking like an idiot. So I left.
When I got home I decided to take a break from it and take a nap, which
thankfully I was able to do. A couple hours later though it started getting to
me again. I went for a drive hoping loud music would help. And it did a little.
But I couldn't do that the rest of the day.
And now I sit here. Don’t feel like going to sleep but
unable to really do anything. I might try to watch TV but that usually makes me
more frustrated. It’s hard trying to focus on something with energy. TV and
movies have energy. I could try explaining what I mean by that. But I don’t
want to. Maybe I’ll just try to go to sleep.
I have my first DBT appointment tomorrow. I’ll try to write
after that.
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