For the last 24 hours I’ve had anxiety attack upon anxiety attack. I know the reasons behind it, which I’m not going to get into, but I can’t figure out how to stop it. I have headaches, stomach aches, trouble breathing, pounding heart, I can’t focus, I feel pins and needles all over my body, and I generally feel like I’m on the verge of a breakdown. I’ve tried breathing exercises, listened to rain music, tried Xanax. It is not stopping.
It’s not too bad when I’m directly interacting with the girls. But when they were eating dinner, taking a bath, and now watching tv, I am having a very hard time. I have to put them to bed in a couple minutes and I have no idea what I’m going to do. When this happened last night I just sat on the couch for two hours. I felt like I couldn’t move. I don’t know how I’m going to get through another night. I really need to work on school. Which is part of the anxiety. I feel like it is impossible for me to work on anything right now. I’m nervous. I just want to lay down and watch tv to try to distract myself. I can’t just do that, I need to work.
I feel like I can’t get out of this, feels like it’s going to be like this forever.
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