I had a dream that I was hallucinating. I know that’s weird
with it being a dream. I was seeing smoke that no one else could see. I was
panicking but no one understood why. When no one understood that I was seeing
this smoke I started hearing mice chattering about the fact that no one
believed me. Hearing mice chattering is something that has happened in my
dreams before. Only last time it continued after I woke up. I really don’t know
where I’m going with this.
I try to pay very close attention to my thinking. Not just
the thoughts themselves, but how I’m processing my thoughts. If things are
getting complicated up there then I know I need to start seeking some help.
When I woke up this morning my mind felt like spaghetti. It still does.
I never realize how much I need therapy until I go a long stretch
without it. It’s been three weeks since my last session and that was after a
four week break as well. I know I didn’t have a good experience at my last
appointment, but yeah… I need to go back ASAP. Why? I don’t know. It’s just a
feeling I have. It’s like my mind is starting to get full of confusing
thoughts, I’m not sure what is valid and what isn’t. Therapy helps clear that;
helps me think in the right way.
I really should be doing homework. So I’m going to go do
that.
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