Holding back

I got back a couple days ago from Ireland. It was a great trip but so exhausting. Travelling with young kids can drain you! I feel I did good mood wise though, which I was worried about. It was nice not feeling like I HAD to see my therapist, which is something I feel a lot. I have an appointment with him on Tuesday. I promised myself that starting this session I would be more honest and open with him. I feel bad that I’ve been wasting his, and my, time by not committing 100%.

In a few days I am going to be speaking to an abnormal psychology class at the college here in town. I was talking to my advisor (who is teaching this class) and I offered to come in to talk about my experience with a mood disorder. I’m actually really looking forward to it. I like the idea of sharing this stuff for educational purposes. And I’m not nervous about it, at least not yet. Ask me again on Monday and I may give a different answer.

I’ve been thinking about what I can say and I think what I’m going to have to do to make it interesting enough is to go into some detail, more than I probably do here. I know I’m sharing a lot on this blog, but at the same time I’m holding back a lot. I said in my first post, I believe, that I worry about how what I say will affect others. I’m not necessarily scared about sharing, I just worry about how my family will deal with this stuff.

In other news; my blog viewings have gone way down. Which doesn’t feel too good. For those of you who are still reading, if there is something you think I’m doing wrong or if there is something else I could be doing let me know. If there is something you want me to talk about please leave a comment. I would love to get my viewings back up.