I’m not sure if I’ve fully recovered from my episode a
couple weeks ago. I don’t feel I’ve been in a “normal” state since then.
For the first time in a while I’m not tired. I don’t feel
like sleeping. I want to be doing things. Unfortunately what I should be doing
is homework. Unfortunately my mind is not up for that. It has other ideas. A
lot of other ideas. I just can’t focus. Even trying to write this. I keep
stopping midsentence. And just. I don’t know. My mind goes somewhere else.
I need to paint my toe nails. My cats are cute. There is a
lot of noise outside. My house is a mess. I should clean it. I should do
homework. In 48 hours I’ll be done with this semester. I’m looking forward to
the fall semester. I need to sign up the girls for swimming and gymnastics. I’ll
do that tomorrow. Maybe I’ll clean the house tomorrow. I have to work tomorrow.
I’m ok with that. I had too much to eat. Wish I had more ice tea. My house is a
mess. I want to start cooking more. I want a tattoo. I need to remember to
order my school books. Oh wait, I did that already.
^^There’s a glimpse into 10 seconds of my mind. It goes on
and on and on. And on and on and on.
Now I have a song from B*Witched stuck in my head. Remember
them? I wonder what they’re up to now. Maybe I’ll google them.
C'est la vie.
ReplyDeleteMy mind races like that constantly which leads to wildly weird crazy off the wall dreams. So I never really get a break from it. "They" say I'm on meds for it but nothing slows it besides the klonopin and I have to be careful because I have urges that make me want to take more. Thank God I have a loving man how helps me stay on track with those otherwise I wouldn't have them when I really need then (everyday). You're in my prayers. Love you.
ReplyDelete