Hallucinations and supervision

I never know how much detail is alright for me to get into on this blog.

The topic of my therapy session today was hallucinations. This is something I’ve had in my life for two years. Auditory hallucinations. The only time I’d say it got serious was a couple weeks ago. The majority of the time I just hear noises. Someone knocking on a door, water dripping, paper ripping. Random you see. I’ve heard music.

So yeah.

My therapist is concerned that even though my antipsychotic dose was increased it hasn’t made a difference. It could just be too soon, we are going to see how it goes for the next couple weeks. He said he will try to talk to my psychiatrist to see if the two of them can come up with something. Which is perfectly fine with me. Sometimes I feel I shouldn’t have a say in my treatment.

I can’t get into detail about this, but basically something has recently come up in my life that should only affect me slightly. In reality it will hit me hard. I am honestly scared. I don’t think people realize how much I use them as support. As a way to keep me on the right track. I feel I need to be supervised. I don’t know how I’m going to handle this.