Dreaming of a break

I am a little worried. Today has been a bit of a blur. The past couple days the noise in my head have been particularly bad. I have been able to function though. Today it got too much while I was at work. I ended up going home for two reasons; I had such a hard time concentrating on what I was supposed to be doing, and I was honestly scared this was going to lead to another episode like the one two weeks ago. I tried a Xanax to see if that helped (it didn’t), and took a long nap (which did seem to help). I feel much calmer now.

I’m really hoping all this is stress related. I’m used to having this happen once in a while, but it’d been a lot the past month. It has not been normal. I’m pushing on through another week till this semester is over and hopefully it goes away. If it doesn’t clear up quickly I will probably end up in my psychiatrist’s office again. I have no idea what he will do if this dose of Abilify doesn’t work. I want something that will help but I don’t like the idea of having to try a different medication completely. I think I’d ask if we can just stop my antidepressant as that could be making things worse.

Oh I don’t know.

7 days left of this semester. I have so much work to do. I keep falling asleep while doing it. I’m looking forward to next Wednesday when I wake up knowing that I have a week off of school. That’s a lie. I still have all my philosophy work to get done. But I might actually not do anything for a week. I think I need an actual break.

Man, a break sounds like heaven.